"oh" often means "it hurts", but you don't get it. you never get anything. you fucking make my whole day, I stay awake most of the nights, then I fall asleep for maybe two hours, but I still awake early every damn morning, because I want to see if you're alive, I want to see your beautiful smile, your lips which make it, your face, your so lovely character and everything that makes you perfect for me. I breathe because I have the thoughts you might breathe in the same rythm and the same beat with me. I never get over you - even if you think so. I need you. Damn, I need you. I need you so much, but I'm too scared to show, because I'm so fucking kinda scared of what comes next... I might just die if you forget our moments, because they are still there - stuck in my head. In my dreams I kissed you. And you kissed me back. Maybe let's get drunk and say each other everything we're too afraid to say. Even better if we're not drunk, but I know it's better to live on your feet than to die on your knees, so I WON'T fucking say these things to you when I'm dry. Because that can kill me, that can kill everything we have. Even if there's nothing we have. It's hard to explain... I mean 'hold on, pain ends' - that's what makes me stay strong, because I hope these sting and pain could end - someday.